Peace

Ok, I realize that a lot of my posts contain lyrics to songs... but music moves me to my core. Listening to music opens my mind to thought, and it is a gateway to me processing emotion. I guess it is one thing that opens up things that are "on my heart" :)

So Im paper writing, feeling stressed (to say the least), and working on getting some balance back in my life. This song comes on my itunes...

Even Then: Nichole Nordeman

It's a fear that keeps me wide awake
In the middle of the night
When the expectations are too great
And the bar gets raised too high
So I do the best with what I've got
And hope that no one knows
That I strain to see how high I can
Try to stand on these toes
Until I'm measured, but You know better

So, thank You, Jesus
Even when You see us just as we are
Fragile and frail and so far
From who we want to be
So, thank You, Jesus
Even when the pieces are broken and small
Dreams shatter and scatter like the wind
Thank You, even then

So I put aside the masquerade
And admit that I am not okay
Which may not be the thing to say
But I'm not ashamed to need You more each day

We raise the standard and try to reach You
But we'll never make it and we don't need to ...

So Im taking a sip of my coffee, and a deep breath. It truly is all good :)

An Unexpected Red Light

Nothing feels better than driving freely at your own pace, but eventually you come to a light. Red lights force you to stop. if you don't stop you run the risk of getting hit or hitting another. Although sometimes frustrating, red lights give you a moment to pause, look around, take in your surroundings, and just be. Red lights throw me off of my schedule, and make me think i will be even later. But whose time schedule am I on? My stops at red lights sometimes hurt, but I am always retrospectively grateful for them and the One who changes the light from yellow to red. Its time to step on the brake, gain some perspective, change the radio station, roll down the windows...and find JOY while im stopped at an unexpected red light.

It isn't the middle of the night,
it isn't even raining outside,
it isn't exactly what I had in mind

Im at a red light,
in the sunshine,
on a sunday,
nothing to say, dont even try.
some are coming home,
some are leaving town,
while my world crashing down,
on a Sunday,
in the sunshine,
at a red light.

Theres a momma calming down a baby in the backseat, in front of me,
Theres an old man dressed in his sunday best just waiting on green,
but I want to get past...

This red light,
in the sunshine,
on a sunday,
nothing to say, dont even try.
some are coming home,
some are leaving town,
while my worlds crashing down,
on a sunday... in the sunshine ...at a red light.