Let Him

Learning a few big lessons in my life as of late. Well, let me be clear… this is not the first time these lessons have been presented to me, but lets face it: some lessons in life require lots of time to learn. Thank goodness that my Teacher has divine patience in my delayed learning curve.

I struggle with the need to take action, fix things, and clinging to a sense of control. Along with this, I have a very analytical, reflective mind that seeks answers. I do not sit well with not knowing, understanding or an inability to come to concrete conclusions. I see these attributes of myself as “strength-weaknesses” A wise friend once told me that an unguarded strength is a double weakness, and it is SO true. All of these traits can be strengths when kept in check, but in certain areas of my life these things have presented challenges. The two main intersecting areas: my faith and my work as a therapist. These are big, central aspects of myself that require me to embrace tension daily. It is not my job to “fix” or know the answer. Although society and western culture tells me that the definition of success lies in results and outcome; God tells me that success is found in Him. It is my job to come alongside people in their struggles, be fully present and know that each moment is part of God’s grand overarching story.

I’m working on letting God be bigger; much, MUCH bigger than me. It is my daily goal to harbor a Kingdom perspective, and know that my gifts are being used for His ultimate good. My work, school, and relationships (pretty much every aspect of my life) cannot be lived abundantly unless His power is continually being made perfect in my weakness.